I have a psychiatrist appointment tomorrow, and I ought to tell her that for several weeks now I’ve maybe had a couple decent days. I might as well not be on any medication. One day my dad asked if I wanted to go to the hospital, but I question the helpfulness. Being in a bleak, sterile place with other mentally ill and suicidal people and being drugged up when they consider you hysterical or “at risk” is about the last thing I want. I’m considering putting something up on eBay or Etsy just for the hell of it. Maybe the possibility of a sale will help me. I really have no intimate connections so I end up posting everything here. In fact I posted my status as depressed on facebook and my sister just made fun of it, and my parents would just get distressed and want me hospitalized. Ramble ramble end quote.